Back in Saigon

More then anything, it's the people that are the reason to visit Vietnam.Incredible.It was raining at breakfast, and they had run out of anything beyond citrus fruit, which I normally love but can't have early in the morning cuz it fucks up my stomach. I mention it and tell them to put it back in the 'fridge and not waste it. The girl asks me what I'd like instead, and I said 'Mangoes' but it was

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Man of Action

I finally met up with Élan once again, after having not seen him since I stayed over at his place for a couple of nights after Ethan left the country. It’s the end of May now, that was at the beginning of March. Two and a half months, I think. He’s lost a ton of weight on a stress filled diet, but no matter, he looked pretty damn good. When he’s a little fatter, he reminds me of Ewan

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The Ways I Dump Thee

You know how it is with women and every magazine, movie and just about every book in the world. I’m not talking about how the female of the species reacts to these things, I’m talking about how they view the female creature. Confusing, irrational, neurotic, dysfunctional, psychotic, insecure, possessive. What nonsense. Men are crazed. All of them, whatever race, religion, dick size and social

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I Am Loved

I woke up beside him, and he was already awake, gazing at me, a hand across my chest. 'You're so perfect', he said. 'So perfect. Everything about you just is. Your face, from your eyes to your nose to the way your lips part when you yawn. Your body, your breasts, your ass, the way your shoulders move when you stretch. (Your hair... allright, it's not perfect, but that's not your fault.) I

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I Dont Believe This!

Oh My God, what ridiculousness. Why am I not in Saigon at the moment taking photos of people selling shit of the street in District One? Let’s see, thirty minutes before check-in at the airport, Chris called me to cancel the date. Why? Because he though I was slotting him into my life just like how I slot everyone else. Sure, if they’re slotting me around the rest of their lives too, like

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Blip

It suddenly occurrred to me that life is really a blip in the greater scheme of things. In the realm of Eternity. Occording to orthodox Christian belief, when we die, our soul lives on for all Eterrnity, and if you're Christian, your soul will be realized in Heaven (a place that is eternal). And Eternity is such that there is no beginning or end, so when you are in it, you have exsisted before

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Burn out

At 3 pm, my brain was just about fried from forcing myself to write and edit a 10k word story in about 5 days. I wrote the whole thing in 3 days and edited it in 2, I am feeling accomplished but exhaused. So far, it's gotten good response. Writing a novel would prove much more difficult then I though, mostly because I tend to forget the parts I have already written and end up repeting them later

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Quick Update

Been very busy the last couple of days working on a few projects.A few people have sent me rather nasty emails that basically go along the lines of, 'what's with the sudden change in attitude towards sex'.The answers are clear in my blogs, these people are just too stupid to think.Casual sex is fun when you don't really care for anyone, and it's fun when you don't have anything else to do. But

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Of Course it's Fine...

I would post Martine's letter to me, only I don't think it's right to splurge other people's feelings on the internet. If I want to do that with mine, that's my business, but not with other people's. Not if they matter to me anyway. If you're a half-wit dumbass, oh well, that's kinda more your problem then mine if I choose to use it for laughs.Basically, he said he'd not developed the same

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What A Laugh.

I really should take a shower, but I ran through my e-mail inbox, and thought a couple of emails I'd gotten in the last two days are too funny to pass up sharing.Note that I normally do not do this, unless you're presumptious and stupid.email no. 1:Why the sudden recent change in outlook, in perspective, in you? I think you've tested positive isn't it?My Answer: Positive for what? AIDS?

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Woo Hoo.

Great! Really, just, Great. I’m very happy now, in fact, I am extremely pleased with myself and how things have turned out. I shocked the shit out of Chris when I turned up at his suite yesterday afternoon allll the fucken way in Bangkok, which is not to say very far, but is nonetheless a 2 hour plane ride away and the whole hassle of getting tickets, and shit like that. He couldn’t stop

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I am going to die!!

I've just been nothing but sad the last couple of weeks. Sometimes I'm happy, but mostly not. Which doesn't really bother me, as long as I get to run off parts of it and talk about it the rest of the time and recieve good advice.Here is a piece of advice for any very, very, very beautiful girl who is also very, very crazy and very talented.1) If there's someone that's normally rational that's

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Here's a Piece of Advice.

Don't have sex for money. Don't ever pay for it. If you are like most normal people, and not just seeing a prostitute for the heck of it, Don't. Feelings are bound to get involved, eventually, and love is not supposed to be a deal. It was never supposed to be a deal. Not a finiancial one.I am too exhausted, but in the last few days, I've just learnt so much. I'll write about it soon, and I hope

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Once Again

I met Martine. I’d wrote him a long, long letter last night for no other reason then because I felt like writing a long, long letter to him. It was pointless of course. I’ve written so many blasted love letters all my life, but never sent them out. The problem with these bloody things is that they’re normally written under certain assumptions or impressions. And while you’re writing them, I don’t

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Untangible and problematic.

I’m completely incapable of writing down everything I feel at this moment, so I won’t. I get a bloody headache every time I think about anything that concerns my love/sex life at all, so I’ve decided to simply not think about it. Not too much anyway. But I’ve discovered a few things. That people normally take other people more seriously then I do, and that just about

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I Tried!

I have behaved so badly and felt so shit the last few days. After Greg turned me out of his place (he didn’t exactly, but the atmosphere was so bad and I was so ashamed I left when he went to take a bath) I called up Élan, but he turned down my call (no idea what’s wrong with that dude, but I’m sure he’s got a good excuse, he’s not that childish) then Cupido, who didn’t. He picked me

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I Am One Big Comprimise

Oh I am so bad at lying. Greg totally knew someone came over, and I couldn’t have kept it away from my face at any rate. Sure, I’m not honest all the time, I eat grape from the grocery store that I haven’t paid for, and spit the seeds out on the floor or something like that, but that’s just it. Oh well, we all learn. I haven’t broken my word in a long, long time. Yes I was drunk, but that I

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Protective Rationalization

The Chaplin had sinned and it was good. Common sense told him that telling lies and defecting from duty were sins. On the other hand everyone knew that sin was evil, and that no good could come from evil. But he did feel good; he felt positively marvelous. Consequently, it followed logically that telling lies and defecting from duty could not be sins. The chaplain had mustard, in a moment of

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Piss Drunk and Guilty.

Crazy rants aside, I went chilling out (i.e. getting drunk) with a few friends from college in a wanna-be ultra bar last night, and bumped into Luke. I thought it was weird, because the men I normally sleep with never go to the places I go to when hanging out with the people my age. But perhaps it was the weather, and the street was quite empty for a Saturday night, and any bar with enough

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Ego-tis-ti-cal Idiots.

There are all sorts of idiots in the world, and the one that I cannot stand the most is the sort that think they can bribe you. I HATE getting emails from men who think just because they’re white and rich, I should want to meet them. (‘I drop by in Singapore often for business, we should meet for a drink’ –go to hell, who told you that we should?) I hate emails from people I do not know offering

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Swing Me

I was invited to a swing party last night, it was fun getting to meet and talking to some of the people there, especially the married ones. Especially when I’m so hung up on the whole marriage issue these days, courtesy of my mom. I was right, there are so many different sorts of marriage, and a couple can stay together regardless, for as long as they want to. Singapore is really very small

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Wave-length

If anyone’s wondering where to purchase Astroglide, apparently the sex shop in The Arcade has it. I’ve been looking all over town for it and haven’t been able to find it at an pharmacy or anyone of those places that one would presume carried good lubricant. They carry lubricant all-right, just very bad ones. The fact that all these places only has that glue shit stuff Durex comes up with is

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Girlfriends are Better.

I texted Greg while I was nearly half asleep a couple of nights ago. The sms basically went along the lines of, ‘I thought about shagging you several times’. 30 minutes later, for some unknown reason, I sat bolt upright in bed and realized that it wasn’t 7 a.m. in London, his message had come across late, and his wife could have taken his cell. I was freaked out of my pants (would have been if I

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My Greatest Fear

There exists in the world, a number of negative emotions. Sadness and melancholy, anger, jealousy and envy, disappointment, etc… Fear. I have a few favourite observations about human behaviour, and one of them is from Linklater’s Waking Life, which I am very sure I have alluded to several times previously. That in our existence, there are only two real forces that can rule our lives, fear or

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Credits..!

I'm sure you guys love the new photo. It's not really new to tell the truth, that was taken a year back, and Mr. Big paid for it. It was one of the first few sets I did. Infinite thanks to a very talented photographer, Jason at Ezcapizm.xoxox

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People are Fucked Up

I cannot believe this. I left my cell phone by the sink and came back something like 1 minute later and it was gone. Obviously someone was clearly looking out to take it, I mean, ugh. Of course people are shitty and dishonest, but who ever took it must have known it was mine, saw me place it on the sink, didn’t say anything about it, and just walked away with it. Then today I bought

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