Bookshelf

Okay, so it’s not perfect, but I don’t care. It says what I want it to say to me. If you can see the details on the book covers; they're basically titles we've both liked.It's been awhile since I did graphic art, but I really liked the illustration so... Need to work on the concept, but not too shabby for a couple of hours or work huh and a concept pulled right out of my ass. xoxox

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Picking Up

Someone chatted me up by the magazine rack yesterday. I'd been flipping through FHM, and he looked over my shoulder and said something like, 'that's a lovely bikini, don't you agree.' I looked at him, raised an eyebrow and shook my head. 'It's too tame.'Among other things, i just realized that someone has a subscription to Esquire in my family. That someone is apparently my mom.And Martine is

06.31 | 0 komentar | Read More

Manolo Blah-whatever

Rainy afternoon, date with Martine that got fucked up because too-many-people-look. Young girl, older white guy kinda problem, what a pain in the ass. He’s so gorgeous I cannot possibly see why it should be a problem in the least. So what if he’s old-er, if you really want to be shallow, at least he falls into the category of the tres chic and very desirable.I hate being in public with him, or

04.04 | 0 komentar | Read More

Desire Junkie

Boy would I love to snort him till I'm dead. <>But I cannot promise all of it exclusively,Unless you can gurantee that,All I give,You will take.If he'd just...*sigh*Not meeting me tonight because he needs to sort out his brains with Liz. That evil, insecure, childish woman.Oh my, my, my.I'm jealous.Maybe I should thank her for making him desirable.Get it?Fuck me. I have paternal

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The Sweetest Thing

So the plane landed about an hour ago and I remember thinking to myself, man I'm very pleased with my life. I had a great easter weekend with Chris, and aside from the ocassional moments where I felt a little too much like Doleres for my own comfort (look, he's just about several decades older then I am, and we were in the U.S... especially so when he suggested a road trip in the Summer after the

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Dropping In

I definitely have no inspiration to write about much today, although (as usual) in the course of the last few hours, many nice things have happened. I really do think there are two kinds of people in this world, the people that live activity filled lives, and the people that don’t. I mean, how is it possible that without trying, 6 hours out of any day of my existence can be more exciting then an

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Absorbed, Single-Minded... Bleh.

Being in love is the biggest joke. Sometimes I wish he would just tell me to sod off already, so I don’t have to go through all the insecurity. It’s completely unbelievable. So what if he doesn’t send me a text? I don’t send a billion other guys texts, even though they’d want it, and I don’t care for texts from them either. They’re good looking, rich, intelligent; what is it with this one bastard

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Rush Rush Rush

I cannot think. Most of my thoughts are all inwards on Martine, and those feelings I cannot describe. There’s too much. What an incredible, amazing lover he is, he’s not sent me a single message all day. I know he’s obsessed with Jeffery Sachs and Bono, so it’s excusable, but how marvelous. He’ll kill me.I went out to meet a photographer this afternoon, he likes calling himself Video, so let’s

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I Should be Exploding

See that thing over there? It’s an emotion coordinator. It comes with a little transistor thingy you can stick up your boyfriend’s ass that you can use to coordinate his feelings with yours. That way you can make him feel like you’re feeling. It’s rather simple to use. You stick in songs and poems that bring out a certain emotional sensation, a certain way that is just Martine (or whatever your

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Damn it.

So a guy I fucked exactly 2 years ago emailed me though this blog without knowing he fucked me, and I met him at a club 10 minutes ago, without arranging anything. Is this a fucking small world or what.I love Martine. I'm sorry to everyone else that wants to fuck me, but I love him. I can't, oh I just can't. It's insane, no one has gripped me in such a long time. Gripped me so hard even my

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Situational People

Most people really are very nice. I think only insecure people are horrid. And as I meet more and more people, I realize that people these days are mostly pleasant and rather decent. Maybe it’s because I grew up on the good old ‘wait till you grow up, then you’ll appreciate the life you have as a kid. Because the world is cruel, and the only people that’ll ever show you love is your family.’ Well

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The headmistress looked at me with pity.‘You’re so cynical you know. So… jaded. For a girl your age, you behave like your 30, like you’ve been through it all.’ She said to me, as if telling me would change anything. After all, if I’ve grown up, I can hardly recede back into the juvenile mindset she expected all girls my age to have.‘Then how should I be behaving?’ I asked.‘Like the rest of the

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Who Says I'm Jaded

The headmistress looked at me with pity.‘You’re so cynical you know. So… jaded. For a girl your age, you behave like your 30, like you’ve been through it all.’ She said to me, as if telling me would change anything. After all, if I’ve grown up, I can hardly recede back into the juvenile mindset she expected all girls my age to have.‘Then how should I be behaving?’ I asked.‘Like the rest of the

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Self-Loving Darling

‘Did you miss me?’ Asked the doctor.‘I did actually.’‘I thought you were in deeply love with your boyfriend, whatever his name is.’ He accused.‘ I thought I was. And I think I am, but you know what? I think when I’m allowed to love a person completely, which means to say I have that love returned in some way, eventually, I just stop loving in that obsessive manner. Nah, I think I can only ever

05.06 | 0 komentar | Read More

Godly Speculations...

I thank God that my life is so pleasant to live.I thank the fact that there is no God, therefore my life is so pleasant to live.I thank Destiny for alloting me a pleasant life to live.I thank Myself for giving myself such a pleasant life.Who ever says anything but the first statement?Everything the brain of a normal person can do has a purpose that enables her to live conveniently. Certainly the

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Crossword Coincedence

Sometime ago there were a bunch of rather bored metaphysical scientist who got a rather sizable sample size of human beings and made them do crossword puzzles. They made them do the puzzle in the daily paper regularly for half a year, then they made them do the puzzle in the daily paper that belonged to yesterday (yesterday’s paper as opposed to today’s paper) for the next half a year. The

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People are Selfish

Whether they greatly desire you, they love you or they just plain like to shag you, they are all selfish. They’d like to do nice things for you, certainly, but they’d just rather not do it if they could, for whatever reason. Like say, they feel lazy.I was SMS-ing Dr. Seuss today; rather, he texted me first and asked me if I was game for some bondage on Monday. I didn’t have a reason to refuse,

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Right Wrong Who Cares

It’s only been one day, and everything seems to have fallen into place already. I’m rather strapped on cash, which doesn’t make me very happy, but that aside. Chris has replied my email, and is rather happy that I can make it to San Fran for the weekend after next (I think) and I have a painting to complete, and being occupied always pleases me because it reaffirms my self-importance as a

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Mode of Living

Ethan left, and I don’t feel very much to be honest. May be because this time I know I’ll be seeing him in a matter of months, so there’s not much for my imagination to speculate upon. It’s difficult to feel sad or lonely because I was traveling with him, and now I’m grounded, without it. The situations are too vastly different for me to feel like I’ve lost someone that was an essential part of a

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It's A Small World

Guess what? Ethan and I came back to Singapore for a couple of days so I could collect my A Level certificate (in case you’re wondering, I did manage to get a decent enough score to enter the Fine Art and Design course I wanted) and he decided to meet a few of his friends he’d gotten to know back, oh, a year or so ago. He probably went on a rather lengthy exposition of the more decent aspects of

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