TV Whore

For the people not living in this weird claustrophobic SEAsian village, the local TV end of Media Crap Co. (which is NOT quite like the paper I write for, because although they are both owned by the same company, different people run the things. Which is about as close to a Free Press outside the internet we're as likely to come to for the next few months. Although nothing is fucking for sure

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The Great Big Shite World

How strange it all is.I woke up with a relatively grumpy disposition, slightly hungry, constipated, tired, and pissed off that I didn’t quite understand the Batch Automate function in Photoshop (I do now) and had wasted just about the whole of yesterday choosing and compressing photos from the new SG set individually. I felt bad for whining about why he couldn’t make my life easier and shoot with

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Fame and Foolishness

What is the benchmark for success? What is the point of fame. Oh my God I know I’ve got terribly lofty ideals, but I can’t help it. Of course success should be measured by how much you change the lives of the people around you, for the better. Fame should be for the purpose of improving the existence of your fellow human beings. I can’t bear to think of the talents wasted into the pointless

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The Awareness Rodeo of Life

I feel depressed. It is raining so very hard, Lynn is no longer in the country, I want to get out too. I feel sick of living here. There’s nothing wrong with it, but I’m so tired. I’m happy with my new life, but there’s too much past I’m so embarrassed with I will have to leave soon. I have started writing my novel, and if there’s one thing I realize, I dislike the people I entered relationships

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Miss Izzy

Hullo there!It's time for me to move. So.www.missizzy.orgxo

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Human Tradition

I didn’t feel like sex this morning. Quite amazing, I never thought I’d ever feel like it, but of course Richard was right when he said much earlier on in the relationship that we wouldn’t be having as much sex as we did at the start. I didn’t seem possible when you existed in a state of having to have sex whenever you could, as opposed to only when you felt like it (in which case, whenever you

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Pretension

Richard and I bummed a ride from a friend* last night, and as we were heading to the booze shop (the aunties there no longer endearingly call him the vodkaman anymore ever since he stopped patronizing their store as often as I go running, for a bottle of Absolut), I asked him* what happened to this girl we knew once, Miss N, who had big tits on an impossibly slender frame and a mouth that looked

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Freedom of Speech

It's easier to say fuck off, if you're not saying it alone.An independent press is important because it gives the people a means to communicate among one another. It is important as a representative of the views of the collective. I'm not educated enough in certain academic areas to know what will get me sent to jail and what will not. And most people probably don't either. So we shut up and know

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Good adn Evil

Tell me, is the human capacity for good more than the human capacity for evil, or is our knowledge of what is truly good insufficient for us to be able to do works of a genuinely good nature. That the people that do good have the same philosophy as the people that believe they are doing good, when to the rest of the world, they are not. At the end, whatever we do, there will never be more good

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Relative Achievement

I was picking off a pair of underpants this morning when I saw the neighbour looking at me. Its not his fault that I insist on going around half naked and parading my youthful nakedness about, and frankly, I don’t care if anyone looks (I think that much is clear). But my attitude towards nudity is such that it doesn’t bother me if it doesn’t bother you. So.Last night Richard set up the studio for

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Fixing Up

The furniture has finally arrived and the gas leak has been fixed for good. Richard and I will stay together in this place for awhile yet I expect. I met my parents after church yesterday (I don’t go any longer, it’s not a terrible thing really because the people that do not believe in the Christ as the way the truth and the light are not any less joyous then those that do. Besides, it is not

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Picking up Your Pieces

Thursday was the day the domesticity started. It simply could not have had been put off any longer. I have this unbearable infatuation with full coloured art books that I will not give up, and they had started piling up around the apartment like brush strokes on a Lucian Freud painting in progress. They were getting out of hand, and the trip to Ikea was inevitable. Initially, he had wanted to get

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Q and A

December's edition has popped up at the bookstores and I'm in it. Henry's been very nice to me, but he's off now; good on him, really- He has been very sweet, although I would rather they didn't sugar up my replies. Of course I try to give sensible advice, but it isn't as if anyone really reads my column for advice. They must like the 'for god's sake your problem is you don't get laid enough'

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Hide-A-Nut Inc.

I cannot stop thinking about pretty little cakes with fresh cream and berries on them. What I really want is a small little tea cake in a pretty colour like olive green or pink and some nice tea. I don’t quite know how Café Rosso on Holland Village is doing these days, but it’s a great café, and I’m always keen to give my support to nice little places like that, because it’s always nice to share

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They've Done it! (Again)

To quote all the people I’ve talked to about the Future of Creativity in Singapore… ‘It’s central planning! The problem is central planning!’ Where shall I start? Shiek Haikel really has nothing to say about anything, and the former is way too up your arse, I think I’m so famous in this tiny little town, I can tell grown people smarter then I am how to behave. Richard and I went to the convention

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The Bible In Two Snaps

The Old TestamentThe New TestamentYou do realize that's the essential difference between the Old and New Testament, and I am not being blasphemous; The Sistine Chapel has nudes aplenty- most with blatant eroticism.xoxox

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Luxury Shitter

Richard and I went back to Sentosa today to finish up the rest of the Lolita school-girl perving, and I must say, we got some pretty racy shots done, given that this is Singapore. But the truth is, people here are more concerned with leaving you alone if they don’t really like what you’re doing, than with bothering you. Unless they’re really, seriously bored. And the good thing about going down

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This Is Madness

That's it. It's started now. I can't breathe.I've got three major projects going on at the same time, and a couple of smaller ones, along with getting my shit together for end of term, finishing Waiting for Godot, and reading up on the whole of Greek art history and the Renaissance. It has started. I'm so pressed for time everything that I do that I don't enjoy makes me mad. Throw in the need to

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The Apt

So. Here's where R and I vegetate on our less exciting weekends doing mundane, domesticated things like hang out the laundry and argue over how many pairs of socks it is possible to lose after every wash.

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Crap People

I’m seldom surprised when I think about why Singaporean culture is only kinda interesting for magazines like Wallpaper and the Newspapers like the Guardian when they are talking about us in context as to how weird this whole place is. When I read articles about the country in foreign papers, I can’t help but get the feeling that they think the country as this strange place with a basically rather

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School Sucks. So.

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Fried Brains and Grilled Trouser Snake

Amazing. Robbie Williams has this pop promo where his dick is manifested in the form of a snake, and it escapes from the back of his arse and attempts to penetrate fantastically tattooed cheerleaders. That aside, I really am going to go quite mad. I’ve finally managed to finish phrase 1 of this scrap book I’m making. Its filled with some of the most amazing nonsense I’ve come across since… three

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On Animals and Escorts

I’ve been meaning to blog for some time, but the opportunity to do so continuously eludes me. It started off with my Mac’s music folder getting locked up and my printer refusing to work properly. Nothing builds up frustration quicker then a stubborn Mac (when a Mac doesn’t work like it should, its even more frustrating then a PC, with those machines, you get the feeling like you have more ways

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School-girl woes

My life would be perfect, if only my Powerbook will stop preventing anyone or anything from accessing the ‘Music’ folder. But no matter. I have wireless broadband now, and my life feels much more complete. Scary, but true. A great deal of consumer services are really not necessary, but wireless broadband isn’t one of them. Richard and I have decided to make a commitment to doing at least one set

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Cirque

I spent most of yesterday slightly hung-over after a catch-up with Mr. Big the night before. We watched a flamenco act and I felt myself wishing I knew how to dance to the music. I thought it was lovely how some places in the world still danced for entertainment, without the necessity for classes and clubs and such. Where they danced on the street when they wanted. And I thought it was a pity

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Bubble-wrap man

We’ve got this weird art project for 3D class the next few weeks where I’m to make a mask of some sort of emotional value. Of course I’m obsessed with bondage and auto erotic asphyxiation and submission… among other things. And I don’t think I’m the only one. Anyway, people kept on harping on the usage of cling wrap and I started bursting out in laughter in the middle of the class because of the

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Colors: Freedom of Speech

"...And who is helping in this powerful and intricate clampdown on Internet freedom? Western companies desperate to do business with China: Firewalls and filtering systems have been provided by the American Cisco Systems, while Chinese Internet users wanting to start blogs on a site hosted by US company Microsoft are told that “democracy,” “human rights” and “Tiananmen” are examples of “

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On the O

Orgasms are problematic things. They’re nice to have, but they really cause a great deal of unwanted problems. You know, things like, if I use the industrial vibrator I’ll reach it in a few minutes but I’ll involuntarily damage my clit. Or if I get her to help me jerk off that’s better than jerking off alone, only I’ll be too worried about her getting bored, so… it wouldn’t really work.Wouldn’t

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Keywords: Radio, Pre-teen, Sex, Porn, etc.

If you tuned in to Perfect 10 this morning, you’ll have heard my hyper-sexed voice from about 9 to 10 going on about breasts and perversion and some other tame nonsense. But that’s the good thing about radio I suppose, you never know what’s really happening in the studio. I mean, who are you kidding. All the times when radio stations have interviewed b-grade porn stars… you think that’s all they’

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All That is Sacred

The apartment flooded again last night, but I slept through most of it while Richard pail-ed out most of the stuff after waking up suddenly with the feeling that there was something going very, very wrong. My life has started filling up with weird domestic responsibilities that have never occurred to me with my parents. Its funny having a maid around because things just Get Done. The floors are

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I've Gone Away

Funny... but I don't care much for other people any more. There seem to be a few people that matter to me, and that's all that kinda matters. I had a long crap blog about how pathetic I thought it was for the guys I used to see to attempt to still try and shag me. No I haven't changed. I'm not less fun for myself, I still enjoy my own company a great deal, it's just that it's a lot less fun for

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Guangzhou, Girls and God.

Guangzhou is the arsehole of the world. It really, really is. They've taken off all the market stalls and food kiosks off the streets and replaced them with mega shopping malls and MacDonalds. The Chinese food there is no better than a sausage, bacon and egg fry up with extra oil, and the air will kill you. The service staff at the hotel do not have name tags, they have number tags, and there are

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Eau de Immunity

It’s never occurred to me that dating someone seriously would make my life boring. I’ve never even thought about it before, all I knew and know is that if it feels right, then it is right, and that’s all there is to it. I’m a lot happier now; I love waking up in the morning and making coffee (We finally got a coffee machine, *grin- It’s uber cool too) before teasing him awake. His eyes will open

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Ass on Buckingham

Right. So fuck cololial-ism.I've had too much wine now. I must have forced the firewire dick into the hole too hard and now I've fucked it up and Richard has to fix it and I feel guilty because we're going to be stuck at work even longer. How shit.Macs are a hassel when you've been using PCs all your life, and all the bloody programs you have are PC versions.FUCK Adobe.What 'unleash your

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Jasper goes Primetime!

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More Personal Emails

I’ve been meaning to write to you for some time now, but the internet connection at Richard’s place hasn’t been sorted out yet so it’s been a hassle getting things online, but we’re working on getting that done.I’ve had a few thoughts in the meantime, and a whole bunch of things I really cannot understand. Remember the time you told me that places like Africa and Cambodia and other destitute

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Calmed Down

Letter to Chris, after I had accussed him of not treating me as decently as he should have. He didn't in some ways I suppose. Men don't often realize that women sometimes love them because they make their life easier and they're willing to comprimise their feelings for somethings. By that. I mean they believe some guys are 'good for them' and they'll do much and fuck themselves up emotionally and

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Where Does it Go

You think a month is a long time, but you know it isn't. There's just not enough time to do everything I want to in a day, and that's one of the reasons why I'm living with Richard. Commuting to school is qutie a hell, but it is hell for everyone that goes to that school. Two and a half hours? Impossible. I've finished more books on the MRT then I have since backpacking around SEA. I'm sleeping 5

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On the Responsibility of Other People's Feelings.

Don't think for a moment my life got boring because I've actually got a boyfriend now. In fact, it's far, far from it. We clocked up a relatively impressive list of public indecencies, copious amounts of empty wine bottles and an absurd collection of psuedo artistic erotic photographs. I just realized yesterday how diffuclt it is to understand people and to really accept them for what they are.

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Love is Light.

I was going on to write about something else, and then R called me and I feel kinda shitty right now, and all of a sudden I realize that love always come at a price. I had a slightly biting tiff with him on the plane about the difference between love and like and that ‘Love’ wasn’t necessarily better then like. Love isn’t about the incredible lightness of being, love is heavy for most people I

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Hideaway

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Statement of Fact.

My God. Creatively, Singapore really is shit.My classmates have been asking me to tell them something about my trip down to London, and that really does seem to end up the predominant, recurring sentiment I seem to make out loud. But then again, that's the same sentiment I have about the country every time someone asks me, 'so how was your trip' whenever I'm back from any city. With perhaps the

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Jasper Moves In

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Disposable Teen

This is so strange, but I must have found someone just like me in one of the girls in my class. She's pretty, sexy, a complete sucker for Neil Gaiman, knows what's bullshit art and what isn't, produces good work, works out and has a soft spot for moon-cakes. She mentioned modeling for art classes, but I told her Suicide Girls (and modeling in that general direction) is much more fun, easier, and

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It's Just Not Fair, Is It.

This must be the first time I’m moping about people generally being unfair to me, but that’s the truth, people… MEN in particular, have just not been very fair to me at all. There have been a few nice ones, but those tend not to be romantic interests, which is ironic. But I suppose in those cases, they don’t expect anything from me, and I don’t expect anything from them, so it’s hardly possible

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Institutionalized Art

How odd.So I skipped one day of class in college last Friday because I was in Sydney and the lecturerer gave me shit about it. My rational was basically, hey look, I had to choose between a crazy experience in Sydney and one of your classes, which I didn't think I would have missed out much on in terms of personal or techincal development. Besides, it's a fucking ditzy art program. It's

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Tony and Jasper

It's new, so give us a chance. We'll do a strip as often as we possibly can... Don't you think we're brilliant? *grin*My apologies for not blogging more regularly these days. I have been actually, it's just that it's all on my PC laptop, and the connection I have seems to work only with Macs.

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Living Fast

I’m sure we’re all terribly familiar with the idea of living fast and dying young. That phrase always conjures up images of a Jon Duan character riding the fastest motorbike on Earth heading straight for an oil tanker, and all this while on E, or something or other of the like. It’s never occurred to me until now that living fast could just as well mean pushing your body to undergo as many

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Venus Nursery

22" by 30"Gouache on Canvas$500For SaleI finished it a few days ago. It took quite awhile, not a color palatte I'm used to. White based images are more difficult to paint too in my opinion, there's just something about white that takes away the strength of the colors in any picture so you've to find other ways around it.xoxox

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The Sex of Art

Schtupping hell.My GOD. Can you believe that? Today has published my article! I mean, that's amazing because man. I mean, I don't think anyone's ever said Porn really is allright on a national newspaper and that art is art and porn is porn and sex in art doesn't mean it's porn, no matter how dirty it gets.And Schtuppingis such a great word isn't it. You can't say fucking, and 'making love' is too

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Mind Your Own.

I don’t know when did perfect strangers decide that other people were their responsibility, but somewhere along the lines, everyone eventually does. But you know what? No one is in a position to give advise to any one else in terms of how they should run their lives, especially not if their lives are of inferior quality. Of course, then again, who am I to judge whether their lives are of inferior

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...

School has been intensely boring. We’re mostly doing things like drawing dots and crosses and sketching hands a feet and writing cheesy melodramatic eastern European-esque porn scripts. I’ve made this weird drawing with a girl and her 1970’s Jetson’s fuck machine. It’s really quite bizarre.Chris called me today after quite some time. I haven’t been replying his emails because I haven’t been

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She Don't Give a Shit

At this moment, Richard’s bleaching the floors of the apartment after it was agreed by our feet that indoors didn’t feel all that much different from outdoors and that is was really that filthy. I should be helping him I suppose, but I spent the afternoon shopping for books and art supplies with my parents instead. I can scarcely believe it, but both daddy and him can have a pretty good

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Live.

I've been unreasonably tired these days. They generally start of with an unreasonably long commute to school (which wouldn't be all that unreasonable if I didn't continously lose my way on campus), some whacking around with paper and pencil in class -I don't think I ever found school so fufilling. At least I get to bring back something everyday. I'd go back, attempt to finish a painting that's

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A-Climatizing

How. Odd.I've started calling the home I used to live in until a couple of weeks ago 'my parent's place' and I've started to refer to Richard's apartment as home. Like I'd be sending messages saying, 'I'll be home at 6'. I've gotten a one year membership at the gym near his place (the liberal manner in which I use 'near' is arguable, apaprently) and have tried doing the laundry. I managed to get

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Bleed my Heart

I’ve pumped myself so full of coffee it’s impossible for me now to go to bed, but I did try, only to find myself drifting off into silly thoughts like, it’s actually really great to feel like you belong to someone. It is bizarre how things like that work out, either you’re completely miserable feeling like you belong only to that one person, or you feel like your heart could bleed for them and

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Decisions and Deals

This is great. I’ve finally gotten my mom’s laptop to function properly, after months of her not letting me access the administrator account because it had a couple of pointless word documents in it she hadn’t touched for a few months herself either; and had plain forgotten about them anyway. Until I get my metric card and a significant discount on the Powerbook I really, desperately want, this

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Try Not To Presume

It's been completely crazy the last couple of days. It's like, what can possibly happen in a couple of days, but a-lot can, (and as it should,) a great deal did. I met Lynn, the girl of this Honkie guy I used to like (the exception to my general indifference to the Asian male aesthetic). She'd called me up a month earlier asking if I could set her up with my photographer, and I'd sort of delayed

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We're Basically the Same

I’ve finally come back to my parent’s place from Richard’s, and you won’t believe what was waiting for me. Ethan had sent me a Swarovski necklace from Zurich. Isn’t that just too sweet! I don’t receive very many gifts, so when I do get them, they’re always such a surprise they mean a great deal. My parents are very Chinese lah, you know, they do the whole Ang Pow (red packet with money inside)

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Hide-Away

I don't have much to say anymore, it's impossible to place my feelings anywhere. Peehaps I've felt like this before, but I certainly don't remember when I was last there. And what surprises me is that he likes me, loves me and tells me so. But I already know and I'm already there, naturally; it's so easy to say I love you. It's kinda strange. It really has been. I mean, who was to know. And no

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How Auspicious

Of all the strange things that can happen to you while staying over at your boyfriend's place, waking up to find his living room completely flooded is not one of them. It's even more odd then the time I got locked in H's bedroom when the lock sprang into it's holder and refused to retract back into the door. We've been trying to figure out where all the water's come from, because he's not even

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Sell-out

Unbelievable. 3 weeks, and Richard was persuaded to church with me. And my parents. Of course he didn’t go for the spiritual… indemnification. I don’t know why he did go, perhaps a combination of nothing better to do at home (unless you count cleaning up the apartment as something better to do) because I wanted him to go, and because it was just one of those weird things out of the ordinary that

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I Don't Care.

I should be fustrated.Looking for a place is turning out to be much more of a hell then I thought it would be. There are all these bloody things to consider, and when you're not making several thousand dollars a month and require things like space and location, it becomes as hard as hell. And then you factor in things like, how are you going to manage your time between school, your new boyfriend

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(Untitled)

It's funny how I didn't realize how alone I was, until now that I'm not so alone anymore.It's like there was a space that needed to be filled, but I didn't know it existed until someone came in to prove it did. And before that, the home always felt a little too big; there were too many echoes, but I didn't know how to stop them. Places that needed cleaning, I could breathe the musk, but couldn't

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The Paid Pussy

We definitely need to stop having sex for the next 36 hours. I absolutely think we must. It’s very good, and I realized my speed with the running has improved up to 12km/h. It must be something your body releases during schtomphing (I like that word. I just learnt it, and it’s a lot less harsh and more fun sounding then something like ‘fucking’), but I think Alice seriously needs a break.

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Vulgarity

I’m going to go nuts. There’s just so much to do I don’t know how some people do it. That is, I don’t know how some people either accomplish everything they want to in their lives while still preserving their sanity and working out an hour a day and having sex for a large part of the night. Or, how some people just choose to ignore everything they have to do and do nothing. Doesn’t it bug you?

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REAL Studio Apartment.

I found out today that Kevin has been looking around for a place to start up his studio. So no we’re looking for something in the range of $1200. Around the Dover, Queenstown, Buona Vista MRTs. Preferably barely furnished. Condominiums or really cool, edgy apartments. You know, crap sort of places with cement floors and rough walls. We’re going to look at shop-houses in Chinatown too. I

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The Failure of Pleasure

The last few days have felt like one really long night. I’m really please we click as well as we do, what can possibly be more fun than sex, drugs, violence, death and religion. Richard wants to make art about all those things, and there’s nothing more I would love doing. I’ve no idea what we’d do. But it would be something so completely outrageous (not because it will REALLY be outrageous, but

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Roomie edit.

Thank you for all the responses! Alright, after taking a look at the Singapore map I realized the best place for me would actually be the areas around Dhoby Ghaut MRT –Killiney Road, Grange Road, River Valley- and Buona Vista MRT – Holland Village- I’m honestly not interested in staying in a flat. Yah la, very wanna-be high-class, I know. If you have something that’s a few

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Roomie

Okay. Help.I'm too lazy to look for a real estate agent, I need to move out (It's WAY too inconvenient for me to make it to NTU from where I live) and I don't particularly feel like moving to Boon Lay.Is there someone out there around the Holland Village area that can accomodate me? I'm looking towards something like $400 a month. It's not a whole lot of money and definitely below the normal rate

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Blog Conference?

Let’s see. I wake up yesterday with unnatural quantities of alcohol in my blood, cervical injury and no clothes to wear (my dress was wrecked from an entire night of naughtiness), and just as I board the train home, the ST reporter in charge of all the blog stories calls me up to tell me that there’s a blog conference going on. I’m so out of touch really, but without meaning to. I met some

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Public Behaviour

I am absolutely convinced I know what men want in women.They want a-lot of things, but I know there's one thing all of them would definitely like to have. And if you're a girl and you don't believe he wants that, it's a pity for the both of you. You'll have boring sex in boring places all your boring lives.Men want a little hell angel.And being one is sure as hell fun.I remember having a

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Drip Garden

Alright baby!Finished 2 days past deadline, but who cares. 32" by 40"Gouache on CanvasSomeone already has first call, but if he finds it inappropriate for his home, it goes for $500 if you're interested. Email me at sarongpartygirl@gmail.com xoxox

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Well Laid

I am definitely not well rested, but certainly very well laid. Which is fine by me. Very fine. And very healthy. Richard must be the only person I’ve slept with in the last 2 years that would make sense going out with. Mostly because I like him a great deal (yeah it’s only been 2 days, but you’ve no idea how fantastic it’s been). It’s kinda strange, but this really is something that could

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Trippy Vibe.

Life is always strange, isn’t it. Mine used to be dead boring, and dry and worst of all, without signposts. I haven’t exactly figured out where I’m going, but sometimes I feel as if I’m climbing the steps at Hogwarts Castle, the ones that constantly change paths, but yet at every junction, (which ever junction I’m presented with, it doesn’t matter) I know exactly where to turn.Some girls out

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Endorphine-d

While making our way to the car, I asked him if people behaved differently after they'd had sex. It was... rhetorical, of course, but I just wanted to hear him say something, it, whatever.I'm sleep deprived and slightly hung-over. You know, the sort of feeling you get when you haven't slept much and drank some amounts of alcohol the night before. That sort of zombie-d out feeling. But it was so.

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Rubber Ball Update!

Holy hell.Someone's sponsored a ticket to the Rubberball for me. By ticket, I don't mean the ticket to the event, I mean the plane ticket down to Sydney!For his generousity, and in the spirit of things...Thank you So, So SO much *grin*I just can't believe it! I'm going to send Dee a friendly reminder to get her ticket to the show, and fix up an outfit for herself. No idea where I'll be getting

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The Male Companion.

At some point in time, God decided to give man the blueprint for the PC and along with that, computer games. Then the internet. Then MMORPGS. And I can assure you, women are no competition when it comes to those things. Alright, given that both Sean and I are nothing more the buddies, I can hardly complain that I spent last night alone in bed, and I’m not (especially since he only had one bolster

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How Passionate is Now

You know how we watch movies like Head in the Clouds and De-Lovely, Romeo and Juliet, Gangs of New York, Braveheart and wonder at how passionate those times and the people that had lived in them were, and ask ourselves if we’ll ever see that in our time. True passion, fervor for certain values that are strongly telling of the human spirit, her resilience, her desires, the want to fight for what

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Virginity For Sale

I met Kevin for dinner today, and we had a fine talk about virginity for sale. There’s apparently a lot of it going on in Singapore, but then again, there’s just a lot of sex going on in this country, so what does it matter. He told me this rather odd story about a girl that sold it off for slightly over a thousand bucks. Lovely rational. She thought she might as well make something out of it, it

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Windmills

The Princess and I had been having at the Café a couple of days ago, telling each other stupid jokes and dreaming up plans to make enough money to open our own office somewhere in town in the next year We’d gotten together to fix up the party, but due to no fault of ours, it’s not going to happen. Because the venue we really would like to have is under-construction, and she’s just too busy.

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Being TRULY Good

Maybe I have been very harsh, even blasphemous with my handling of the 10 commandments. But what I effectively am against is not so much that they exist as moral codes to live by, but rather, that people have been using them to condemn other people through time without end. Is there any WORTH in their existence? As a Christian code, I do not believe there is any worth in the 10

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The Unberable Lightness of Being

I've got so much work to do. A painting I need to finish painting, a list of essay titles I need to come up with an elaborate upon (so that I can push my writing to cool indy Singapore publications. Mostly run by expats, and I wonder why's that).But to all those that have eyes and a brain to go along with it, this site is just great. I've no idea who he is, aside from the fact that he's Italian,

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Ripples and Skipping Stones.

Does the fact that the headlines spew impassioned words of courage and of condolences, of sympathy and empathy, of the steeled resolve of the developed and the oh so wide and far-reaching secular world mean that this generation really isn’t apathetic. That we actually want to care about our fellow mankind, particularly so, now in London and in Africa. Or is it because we are apathetic,

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Authenticity

'Everywhere I travel, tiny life. Single-serving sugar, single-serving cream, single pat of butter. The microwave Cordon Bleu hobby kit. Shampoo-conditioner combos, sample-packaged mouthwash, tiny bars of soap. The people I meet on each flight? They're single-serving friends.' -Fight Club'Come bombs, and blow to smithereens, Those air-conditioned, brignt canteens, Tinned fruit, Tinned meat,

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Blogs Are Strange

Blogs are strange things. We read them because we want respite from the contrite from of entertainment the media feeds us, piled high with stereotyped diversities (SAP-single-sex-school educated Chinese girl, guitar-loving-disaffected-family-orientated-Malay-Boy, Super-Smart-Med-School-freshmen-Indian-Boy… It suddenly occurred to me that I do not actively remember any Chinese Boy characters on

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I Couldn't Help It...

I normally don't make it a point to reply to any one comment, but the one about me never writing anything worthwhile really, really provoked me.To those who think that I don't, maybe you should read at least 70% of the blog before asserting something like that. I have definitely discussed issues like AIDS and STDS many times, have definitely encouraged people to take an active stand in being less

09.22 | 0 komentar | Read More

Once And For All- Dick Off.

What’s the fuss over small dicks? I’ve had a number of Singaporean males email me saying they like the site bla, bla etc. but they really didn’t appreciate the derogatory comment concerning their penile appendage. It’s been mention previously I’m sure: As long as your girlfriend’s happy with what she has and you have, then no one has the right to say you suck. I was hanging out

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Whoa!

I just printed out every single entry, and I have nearly 4000 A4 sized, Ariel font 10 pages of material. That's a lot of shit to go through.Anyway, I've always had a book deal. Since last year, it was staring right at me. I was simply too caught up in god-knows-what to have figured it out. I really need to re-evaluate my life. The sex part I can deal with, the career part? I'd really better start

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Self Acceptance

There comes a point in time when you start to think it’s time to say something about something, and there is absolutely no reason why you should postpone it any longer. And the time is now. Yes I know about Xia Xue, and of course I’ve certainly seen the gif animation she made with that fateful photograph that got me all the (then) unwanted article in the Straits Times. A friend sms-ed me

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Oh My God!

Isn't it just so cool when you get your face in the papers and the two best things to come out of it is to have the guy your crazy over call you and an old friend from childhood stop by and say hi. And you find out that shes turned out hot as hell, but not like there was any doubt in the first place!xoxox

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Little Races.

There’s only one person out there that can make my heart race, and he never fails to do it every time. I’ve tried to get things into perspective, and I actually think I’ve managed it because the last time I bumped into him, I didn’t have any strong desire to beg him to take me home. But I still thought about him continuously for the next few days. He doesn’t believe what I have for him is

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BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY!

If I could have it my way, the ultimate party I’d like to have a ticket to would possibly have to be the annual Rubber Ball , this year held in Sydney on the 13th of August, which would almost certainly mean I will be attending. To cut the chase, the Princess said she’d really like to throw a party for a great deal of people, only she didn’t know where to get the ‘Great Deal of People’

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Of Course it Would Be.

If he’d broken contact with my skin, I would have died. I wish it never started, because now I know what the ultimate pleasure was. I wish he didn’t have to break contact with my skin, but inevitably it will happen and I think I know it, although I wish with all my heart it were not true. My fault, his fault, it did not matter. Will I ever be able to love properly, to love genuinely. Did

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Email on religion

And calling another person a bitch isn't a sin? Weren't the pharasees criticized more then the prostitutes in the gosples?What makes you think the bible is so accurate anyway?Remember how when we were in Sunday School, they used to tell us how the devil would come in pretty packages? The prettiest package is the semblance of holiness and the divine. Maybe the church isn't so innocent afterall.The

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Inner Sanctuary

Has anyone else noticed the insides of Olinda's thighs on the MRT doors at the Orchard station? That's rather provocative in my opinion. The insides of a woman's thighs is a very sexual visual. She's looking gorgeous these days, I hope Singapore Idol stardom takes her beyond being a poster girl for some slimming company. Such a great voice and spunky personality, and the only news I have of her

02.29 | 0 komentar | Read More

Comments 2

All-right, I turned it off. Most of the comments were nothing more then vandalism on MY blog. Your disapporval of me doesn't matter as long as you shit far away from my front door.I've never hurt anyone and I cannot understand why people would want to say nasty things to hurt me.If you don't like me, don't turn up here.Not that difficult right, Just. Go. Away.Let me do my thing for the people

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Finding Out.

Oh, less then 24 hours back in sunny Singapore (where my fingers don’t freeze and I can workout out-doors) and I already miss the G-spot. It’s no big deal; I only really miss how sweet he is, and the cool ideas he has for the films he wants to make, his thoughts about people and books and the odd characters we’re all bound to have to deal with at some point in our lives. And of course I miss

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Pulp Fiction

I swear to God, when I get back to Singapore, I'm going to make Tori and some of her best buddies watch Pulp Fiction with me. It is THE best Bad Mother Fuckin' movie of the 90's. It's THE movie for the 90's (and in my opinion, Garbage is THE band of the 90s).Anyway, I've got a movie date with the G-Spot and Fight Club, so here's a quick note.***Is my popularity due to my writing or my pictures.

03.18 | 0 komentar | Read More

Comments

If you're just going to call me a slut, just don't bother. I rather be a slut then an idiot with a tight wedgie up my ass. You're just spamming up the comment feature. I'll try this bloody thing for a few days and see if people actually bother to say anything worthwhile. If they don't, then it really kinda defeats the purpose. You are completely welcomed to disagree with me, but you better have a

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Better then Nothing.

I adapted this post from someone I know. I love her style, her attitude, and how smart she is. (No, this is NOT me trying to write as someone else. The ideas and general structure of the essay was someone else's, she simply needs to practice non-fiction writing, that is all. And maybe work on her grammar a little more. But hey man, this chick hasn't even gotten past adolescence.*** Know how your

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Forewarning

There will be 2 articles about me in that Trashbag of a newspaper again. The one that fucked up Dee sometime ago and made her look like the epitome of teenage binge drinking (tell me, who here hasn't gone on a alcoholic free for all at least once (meaning drinking more then you can handle) since they had accessible alcohol?).All I can say is, whatever they put on there, don't believe all of it.

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Cold, Wet, but Not Hungry.

The weather has been pretty dreadful the last 2 days, but most of it was spent indoors, so it didn't really matter. We went up to Whiheki island, a little north from Auckland by ferry to visit an old friend of G's back from god-knows-when. I thought he was married to this absolutely gorgeous girl (they had a kid, but apparently having a kid doesn't mean you're married, have to be, or should be),

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BTW

I just finally managed to read the ST article about me. The one with the picture of me in the red top,. If anyone needs to know the background of that photograph *laughs* I'd shot it on National Day's eve actually, and had posted it someone back last year, just for the heck of it.Anyway, I'd really like to thank Melissa (the reporter that did the article) for writing what she did, and trying to

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Sex-o-tude

I received a rather weird e-mail from someone who’d once lived in Auckland; went something along the lines of how ironic it is that I am in the situation I happen to be in at the moment. Which is to say, sharing a single bed in a tiny room in a flat with two huge Russians, one of which owns a fake leg and can’t piss properly standing up; which however isn’t a problem since he doesn’t piss

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Help...?

I am so out of touch. Can some one please email me the details of the news reports?Martine tried calling me up yesterday, rather woried that I may have defamed his name in some way, whether intentionally or otherwise when he saw my pictures splashed across the papers. I told him he was never mentioned as anything else aside from someone that I was in love (and perhaps still am) with. He never

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Singapore conservative? Bullshit.

You know Singapore isn’t a conservative society. Conservative societies are driven by religion, Singapore, is driven by money. If you can’t comprehend that, let me put this horrid, hard fact to you this way: We are a capitalistic society.Sometimes I get the strange feeling that the media decided to go to press with a biased view to my story (the very first article anyway, I have not read the ones

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NO MORE ARTICLES

Just leave me alone.Any article about me as a 'nude blogger' after yesterday's ST does not come with my support or agreement. There's nothing I can do I suppose, and it's probably going to be pretty naff. But whatever. Just so you know, I never agreed to anything. Besides, ho could I? When they don't come clean with you what exactly will be published?IM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT.xo

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drugged out good morning :D

I'm warm an snug in a fluffy Guess sweater, just right out of a shower and right out of bed. Still feeling a little drugged out from all the sleeping aids I'd taken to beat the jet lag, but it'll go away after a little walk and some breakfast, I suppose.The G-Spot has been simply lovely, and he personality wise, he's not changed very much at all. Always as considerate (then again, I would never

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sorry guys

Am in NZ at the moment having a blast with the G-Spot. He's wrapping me up into his terribly exciting arty-fartsy life, and I'm having too much fun to want to bother with anything that's going on Sg at the moment.Parents say pics go, so pics go. Period. You like me for who I am, sex or no sex. But I am sex so, whatever. Thing is, that's got to be what it is for now. I just can't be bothered.

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There are more important things...

I’m very tired and emotionally drained, but I think I’ve finally gotten all my thoughts consolidated finally, and it is this: I know what I want to be known for, and what I would like to be public for, and it is definitely not for the ability of being able to strip in front of the camera. You see, I don’t strip take nude photos or post them for the sake of attention. I knew it would get me some

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How to Live Life

Okay. My parents don’t like it. Well, it’s really more like this, My mom doesn’t care, but my dad doesn’t like it so she doesn’t like it. I hate the papers for writing about me so badly. For trying to find a scandal and dragging the mention of my parents into it. For making me nothing more then a ‘Naked Blogger’. Frankly, I don’t give a shit, but my parents do, and that kinda makes me need to

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International Dateline

Last night was spent on the side of a mountain over-looking a lake. When I woke up in the morning, the sun was gloriously hot and the valley was filled with clouds such that I was looking down on them instead of up at them. It was about 7 in the morning, and all the Balinese people that worked about the place were already up minding their own business, but most of the other guest were still

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Good Morning

Good Morning to all of you moralistic pricks who thrive on scandal. (I am sure I’m not the only one that sees the irony in that greeting). I am about to get a heart-attack from too much excitement, but as always, better some action then none. Let me define my purpose in life once more, those that have been reading for a long time already know what it is, but I shall do it again. I am not

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Update

1) Don't worry about the fact that you aren't seeing my header and all of that. There's nothing wrong with your connection, I've just exceeded my bandwidth. That will be fixed when I get back to Singapore.2) I like being in the news. You can be sure that I will have a gallery exibit for my photographs (and that of my girlfriends too) in slightly over a month. I better call Dee before she leaves

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Chill Pill

I am away in paradise at the moment and am very glad for it. While all of you are minding my business anf trying to cause me unnecessary hassle, scandal, and a racing heartbeat because I simply don't know what the hell happen or what the hell is going on. But at this moment I am tucked away in a villa on a hill, over looking a flowing stream and a valley filled with ashen trunked trees and

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My PC has died

I'll be out of the country on a tropical beach resort until It's time for me to head down to NZ. Check in later.If you're wondering why I'm on Domestic news, I don't know either. People are crazy. I was only aware of the fact that I was going to be on it yesterday evening, and whether I liked it or not, the story was going to be published. Although frankly, it says nothing, means nothing, doesn't

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You Couldn't Have Guessed

I’m laughing to myself now because I’m so happy. Because I cannot believe what I have just done and what I will do (frankly, I don’t know what the latter is either). But I am going to NZ to visit the G-Spot, so there.Sometimes I think I’m definitely off my rocker. One moment, I’m moping about Martine and fussing about Chris, then I go ‘oh screw this shit’ and I decide to take time off in NZ. It

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Guess What!

The G-Spot called me today, and I shall be flying down to NZ to be written into a script he promises he'll write for me.I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! I'm going to see the G-Spot. Oh my God. I'll write more when I've calmed down. Maybe it's just my imagination and my fancy for romantism, but while I never felt so intensely passionate about him as I did Martine, there was something there that meant alot.

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So The Melancholic Saga Continues...

I had a lot of things to say, and I probably still do. Only I can’t think of much else aside from shagging Martine, throwing stuff out of my room and designing fetish outfits.I emailed him a couple of photos from my newest set, and he’s finally sent me an email that was a little more affectionate then the hey-how-you-doin’ sort. And it even came with one of his essays (well, I demanded a trade).

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Martine, Martine, @#$%

I bumped into Martine at the bookstore today. Believe it or not. He's sexier then ever, but mostly because i haven't seen him for awhile, he's been working out, and was walking around with his shirt unbuttoned just enough to show all of his collarbones. Which is kinda sexy. Kinda is kinda an understatement though.Oddly enough I was wearing the royal colour of his nation of birth. When I bumped

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E-mail me

sarongpartygirl@gmail.com

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Whatever Makes Sense

I know this is kinda raw and real and filled with mediocre english and what the hell ever. But I'm so busy at the moment, and just really pissed off with the way guys look at me.It's so easy for them to date me man, shit. They all say the same thing. She's pretty, but I love her for her brains. It's what's in between her head (and secretly they go, her legs) that really counts. So easy right. The

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hehehe

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S.A.L.E

‘Pundits are always blaming TV for making people stupid, movies for desentizing the world to violence, and rock music for making kids take drugs and kill themselves. These things should be the least of our worries. The main problem with mass media is that it makes it impossible to fall in love with any acumen of normalcy.' – Chuck Klosterman, Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs.Read that book, it’s too

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Fustrated Fustration

If anyone asks me where’s the best place to shop, I’ll tell them it’s Vietnam. Because you can get everything custom made there for nearly nothing, and it’s good work too. Saigon is just too much fun, and I absolutely love it. The day before last, we went to the Chinatown area (Cholon), and I was absolutely bowled over by the amount of activity going on. Everyone was busting their asses working

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Back in Saigon

More then anything, it's the people that are the reason to visit Vietnam.Incredible.It was raining at breakfast, and they had run out of anything beyond citrus fruit, which I normally love but can't have early in the morning cuz it fucks up my stomach. I mention it and tell them to put it back in the 'fridge and not waste it. The girl asks me what I'd like instead, and I said 'Mangoes' but it was

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Man of Action

I finally met up with Élan once again, after having not seen him since I stayed over at his place for a couple of nights after Ethan left the country. It’s the end of May now, that was at the beginning of March. Two and a half months, I think. He’s lost a ton of weight on a stress filled diet, but no matter, he looked pretty damn good. When he’s a little fatter, he reminds me of Ewan

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The Ways I Dump Thee

You know how it is with women and every magazine, movie and just about every book in the world. I’m not talking about how the female of the species reacts to these things, I’m talking about how they view the female creature. Confusing, irrational, neurotic, dysfunctional, psychotic, insecure, possessive. What nonsense. Men are crazed. All of them, whatever race, religion, dick size and social

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I Am Loved

I woke up beside him, and he was already awake, gazing at me, a hand across my chest. 'You're so perfect', he said. 'So perfect. Everything about you just is. Your face, from your eyes to your nose to the way your lips part when you yawn. Your body, your breasts, your ass, the way your shoulders move when you stretch. (Your hair... allright, it's not perfect, but that's not your fault.) I

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I Dont Believe This!

Oh My God, what ridiculousness. Why am I not in Saigon at the moment taking photos of people selling shit of the street in District One? Let’s see, thirty minutes before check-in at the airport, Chris called me to cancel the date. Why? Because he though I was slotting him into my life just like how I slot everyone else. Sure, if they’re slotting me around the rest of their lives too, like

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Blip

It suddenly occurrred to me that life is really a blip in the greater scheme of things. In the realm of Eternity. Occording to orthodox Christian belief, when we die, our soul lives on for all Eterrnity, and if you're Christian, your soul will be realized in Heaven (a place that is eternal). And Eternity is such that there is no beginning or end, so when you are in it, you have exsisted before

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Burn out

At 3 pm, my brain was just about fried from forcing myself to write and edit a 10k word story in about 5 days. I wrote the whole thing in 3 days and edited it in 2, I am feeling accomplished but exhaused. So far, it's gotten good response. Writing a novel would prove much more difficult then I though, mostly because I tend to forget the parts I have already written and end up repeting them later

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Quick Update

Been very busy the last couple of days working on a few projects.A few people have sent me rather nasty emails that basically go along the lines of, 'what's with the sudden change in attitude towards sex'.The answers are clear in my blogs, these people are just too stupid to think.Casual sex is fun when you don't really care for anyone, and it's fun when you don't have anything else to do. But

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Of Course it's Fine...

I would post Martine's letter to me, only I don't think it's right to splurge other people's feelings on the internet. If I want to do that with mine, that's my business, but not with other people's. Not if they matter to me anyway. If you're a half-wit dumbass, oh well, that's kinda more your problem then mine if I choose to use it for laughs.Basically, he said he'd not developed the same

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What A Laugh.

I really should take a shower, but I ran through my e-mail inbox, and thought a couple of emails I'd gotten in the last two days are too funny to pass up sharing.Note that I normally do not do this, unless you're presumptious and stupid.email no. 1:Why the sudden recent change in outlook, in perspective, in you? I think you've tested positive isn't it?My Answer: Positive for what? AIDS?

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Woo Hoo.

Great! Really, just, Great. I’m very happy now, in fact, I am extremely pleased with myself and how things have turned out. I shocked the shit out of Chris when I turned up at his suite yesterday afternoon allll the fucken way in Bangkok, which is not to say very far, but is nonetheless a 2 hour plane ride away and the whole hassle of getting tickets, and shit like that. He couldn’t stop

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I am going to die!!

I've just been nothing but sad the last couple of weeks. Sometimes I'm happy, but mostly not. Which doesn't really bother me, as long as I get to run off parts of it and talk about it the rest of the time and recieve good advice.Here is a piece of advice for any very, very, very beautiful girl who is also very, very crazy and very talented.1) If there's someone that's normally rational that's

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Here's a Piece of Advice.

Don't have sex for money. Don't ever pay for it. If you are like most normal people, and not just seeing a prostitute for the heck of it, Don't. Feelings are bound to get involved, eventually, and love is not supposed to be a deal. It was never supposed to be a deal. Not a finiancial one.I am too exhausted, but in the last few days, I've just learnt so much. I'll write about it soon, and I hope

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Once Again

I met Martine. I’d wrote him a long, long letter last night for no other reason then because I felt like writing a long, long letter to him. It was pointless of course. I’ve written so many blasted love letters all my life, but never sent them out. The problem with these bloody things is that they’re normally written under certain assumptions or impressions. And while you’re writing them, I don’t

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Untangible and problematic.

I’m completely incapable of writing down everything I feel at this moment, so I won’t. I get a bloody headache every time I think about anything that concerns my love/sex life at all, so I’ve decided to simply not think about it. Not too much anyway. But I’ve discovered a few things. That people normally take other people more seriously then I do, and that just about

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I Tried!

I have behaved so badly and felt so shit the last few days. After Greg turned me out of his place (he didn’t exactly, but the atmosphere was so bad and I was so ashamed I left when he went to take a bath) I called up Élan, but he turned down my call (no idea what’s wrong with that dude, but I’m sure he’s got a good excuse, he’s not that childish) then Cupido, who didn’t. He picked me

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I Am One Big Comprimise

Oh I am so bad at lying. Greg totally knew someone came over, and I couldn’t have kept it away from my face at any rate. Sure, I’m not honest all the time, I eat grape from the grocery store that I haven’t paid for, and spit the seeds out on the floor or something like that, but that’s just it. Oh well, we all learn. I haven’t broken my word in a long, long time. Yes I was drunk, but that I

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Protective Rationalization

The Chaplin had sinned and it was good. Common sense told him that telling lies and defecting from duty were sins. On the other hand everyone knew that sin was evil, and that no good could come from evil. But he did feel good; he felt positively marvelous. Consequently, it followed logically that telling lies and defecting from duty could not be sins. The chaplain had mustard, in a moment of

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Piss Drunk and Guilty.

Crazy rants aside, I went chilling out (i.e. getting drunk) with a few friends from college in a wanna-be ultra bar last night, and bumped into Luke. I thought it was weird, because the men I normally sleep with never go to the places I go to when hanging out with the people my age. But perhaps it was the weather, and the street was quite empty for a Saturday night, and any bar with enough

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Ego-tis-ti-cal Idiots.

There are all sorts of idiots in the world, and the one that I cannot stand the most is the sort that think they can bribe you. I HATE getting emails from men who think just because they’re white and rich, I should want to meet them. (‘I drop by in Singapore often for business, we should meet for a drink’ –go to hell, who told you that we should?) I hate emails from people I do not know offering

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Swing Me

I was invited to a swing party last night, it was fun getting to meet and talking to some of the people there, especially the married ones. Especially when I’m so hung up on the whole marriage issue these days, courtesy of my mom. I was right, there are so many different sorts of marriage, and a couple can stay together regardless, for as long as they want to. Singapore is really very small

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Wave-length

If anyone’s wondering where to purchase Astroglide, apparently the sex shop in The Arcade has it. I’ve been looking all over town for it and haven’t been able to find it at an pharmacy or anyone of those places that one would presume carried good lubricant. They carry lubricant all-right, just very bad ones. The fact that all these places only has that glue shit stuff Durex comes up with is

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Girlfriends are Better.

I texted Greg while I was nearly half asleep a couple of nights ago. The sms basically went along the lines of, ‘I thought about shagging you several times’. 30 minutes later, for some unknown reason, I sat bolt upright in bed and realized that it wasn’t 7 a.m. in London, his message had come across late, and his wife could have taken his cell. I was freaked out of my pants (would have been if I

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My Greatest Fear

There exists in the world, a number of negative emotions. Sadness and melancholy, anger, jealousy and envy, disappointment, etc… Fear. I have a few favourite observations about human behaviour, and one of them is from Linklater’s Waking Life, which I am very sure I have alluded to several times previously. That in our existence, there are only two real forces that can rule our lives, fear or

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Credits..!

I'm sure you guys love the new photo. It's not really new to tell the truth, that was taken a year back, and Mr. Big paid for it. It was one of the first few sets I did. Infinite thanks to a very talented photographer, Jason at Ezcapizm.xoxox

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People are Fucked Up

I cannot believe this. I left my cell phone by the sink and came back something like 1 minute later and it was gone. Obviously someone was clearly looking out to take it, I mean, ugh. Of course people are shitty and dishonest, but who ever took it must have known it was mine, saw me place it on the sink, didn’t say anything about it, and just walked away with it. Then today I bought

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Art Bullshiiit

I’m glad the government has pumped a great deal of money under the name of art. For me, as someone who doesn’t yet need to make money from practicing any craft (I don’t need to, but I do. I’m actually relatively capable of making money under more conventional circumstances), much of what they do is great. The walk up to the Esplanade is always interesting, and this week, I get to watch what would

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Tediousness

My parents and I seem to have a never ending amount of pointless arguments. So many it’s annoying, and definitely pointless. ‘The bible has rules that you should follow for your own good.’ ‘But the rules were meant to bring out our faults, weren’t they, so that we’d know whatever we do, we are hopeless failures and resigned to accepting Christ as our only hope.’ ‘But if you don’t follow

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Life tastes kinda like Vittoria

I woke up today and life felt like black coffee. I was so tired but going back to bed simply wasn’t possible. Greg returned from Amsterdam the night before last, expressly to see me before he went back home. He brought me lots of hazelnut chocolate. I spent the last two nights at his place and did the dirty with him (unbelievable. After 6 weeks of knowing him and sleeping in the same bed all this

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Why do it for Free?

<>Sex is good fun, but why do it for free when you can get something out of it? Sounds god-awfully harsh, doesn’t it, but any fetching female not using her charms to make her life better is not using all her potential. It’s dead-pan common-sense, and it’s not as if other things have to be comprimized. Sure, there are some snobbish, rich men who think their money is so great (I can’t think of

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Never Hurt Anyone.

Sorry for the down time on the blog, and the fact that the pictures are still not showing up. What a pain in the ass. I can hardly believe it’s been over a full year since I started blogging (the web-space subscription lasts a year), and now all my pictures are lost. But no matter, it’s high time I revamped this thing and did more fun things with it. Especially the guide around Singapore, and

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Underappreciated

I'm surrounded by fuckwits that don't give a shit about me doing nice things for them. I try to make dinner for my mom, and she doesn't wait. What the fucking #$%^ and she complains I never do anything nice. Well, hello?? You can't even do this one nice thing for me by waiting for me to finish cooking dinner?When was the last time you did anything really nice anyway? Sure you care, so? Sure I can

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Shit.

I don’t know what to do. Last night, I met a college infatuation, had a couple of drinks, straddled him in the cab and strapped ourselves together with the belt. I told the cab to turn back though and stayed alone at Greg’s. It would just have been too troublesome to have go home the next day from his place. I don’t know what to do with M anymore. Nothing has ever been so complicated

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We're all Kinda Stupid

Everything is going wrong today. EVERYTHING!I just want to hide in Greg's apartment and stay there and work. If I bump into M, I have everything I want to say worked out. But I'll only have the capacity for three points I wish I could make.Firstly, that everyone has real feelings. Whether or not they need him, and he is very rude to think they are crazy. And very rude to not apologizefor doing so

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I Woke Up

And a few things occurred to me. Firstly, there existed a flying pussy that tasted like sour plum candy when I kissed it, and Greg agreed. Secondly, if I spend enough time with any guy I knew right out from the UK, I inevitably end up using ‘shit’ and ‘fuck’ more then I normally would. And (thirdly) I think it’s absolutely acceptable to use it on everyone else. So being the idiot that I am,

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I Don’t Want to Blame You, But.

Don’t go away, Please stay.I wouldn’t know what to do, What to cling on to,Should you leave, my imagination shall have naught to cleave. Maybe I’m all wrong, perhaps this has gone on too long,Time wasted, for my curiosity to be sated,In order to find out, that delusion’s not what love’s about. But in my head the incessant chatter, ‘What should it matter’,I’ll never know it’s

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Cheerios

I really hate it when I send and email pouring out all my feelings and don’t get a reply for the whole entire day. I’m sure all of you are getting shit tired of me being all sappy, but what can I do? I wish I’d more sense. But I really think he’s so perfect for me. You can be subjective about how you feel, but not about things like, damn I really like sleeping with him, I really like cuddling him

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Thick Headed

Ethan called me thick-headed. He went, ‘actually I miss talking to you, and I miss your thick-headedness’. This better be because his English sucks, and not because he really thinks I am. Because he can go to hell if he meant it. I wasn’t the dumb-ass who decided there was going to be a trail through the mountains in a fucking under-developed island in SEA, and I was definitely not being a

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Not Fair

I’m supposed to be IT. I don’t want people, they want me. I’ve no need for them, no one should be making my heart race, no one should be able to give me that popcorn roasting in my tummy sort of feeling, no one (god-fucking forbid!) should be able to make me feel *gasp* desperate. But he Does. I don’t know why or how, but he just does. The weird thing’s that I’m able to tell him that, and

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Artwork

Artwork for Event Odyssey.Content pageAll artwork is copyrighted. Please do not use without permission or accreditation. You are duly reminded, because I know sometimes, I forget :) And I'll fix the spelling another day. xo

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Here's a Lesson

When you’re living in such a small world like Singapore, where there are many places to eat, but not many super-nice, casual ones in convenient locations, chances that you meet a New Year's Eve one night stand is just about very possible. Even if you've only ever had one New yera's Eve one night stand, and your aprtner in crime doesn't even live in the city permanantly. I was having a late

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Talk Cock Lah

I watched Spanglish a couple of days ago with Chris, and it got me wondering over what exactly being yourself was all about. A few days before, a very good friend of mine was riling me for my accent, and how it’s just nonsense. I’ll be god-damned frank, my accent’s is nonsense. Although one would then have to decided who the hell’s to judge what’s nonsense and what ain’t. Most people I know very

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Whirlwinded.

If you’re wondering where I’ve been for the last couple of days, here’s the answer, I’ve been minding my life. The Princess has started up a business that I’m sure will work out very well, I’m helping her do publicity material, and she’s been telling me about stuff I could do for the wine company she works for. So I told Chris about it. And apparently, he minds one of the wineries in

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Again, again!

I love you What did you say? … I love you.Goddamn I can't seem to do any art properly today. My posters all fucked up. Trying a new medium always gives me a headache.Chris, by the fucking way, is coming down tonight to meet me. Isn't that lovely, I've not told him I'd meet him at the air-port, but I suppose that would be the nice thing to do.xoxox

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Love

Love is subjective, and since I’m not looking for everlasting devotion (and frankly don’t care much for it if it comes from a good-for-nothing who cannot provide for me) I’ll take whatever is tangible. I can’t judge love, but I sure as hell can judge good sex and an exquisite quality of life. And they all enhance whatever romantic feeling and passionate sentiment . It’s all very well to say

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Okay... So There.

I broke up with Ethan. It was quick, and relatively painless. But of course losing someone you like will always hurt a-bit, and I’ve never actually lost anyone before (no body ever bothers to let go). I suppose, though, when things are an effort to maintain, people have to make decisions. I couldn’t have wanted him to interfere in my life any longer, it was starting to feel difficult. He made me

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Women Can Never Tell... Perhaps!

If a guy's a bastard when they’re in love. True/False…? I’ve gotten so many comments with regard to my relationship with Martine, and most of them go along the lines of ‘you deserve better’. But the thing is, better is not always better. It’s the way I’m being treated that makes me feel good about it all. And the truth is, I do write to make myself sound something of a Cordelia-like…

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The Vatican Rag

Okay. So someone that reads this blog (pronounced with distaste) has decided to interfere into my life and mind someone else’s business but her own. Well hello, I don’t appreciate it, and neither does anyone else. People are weird, period. Look, this is just a blog, it’s a little bit of my life. I cannot update it in real time, and things in my life change on something like an hourly basis

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Bookshelf

Okay, so it’s not perfect, but I don’t care. It says what I want it to say to me. If you can see the details on the book covers; they're basically titles we've both liked.It's been awhile since I did graphic art, but I really liked the illustration so... Need to work on the concept, but not too shabby for a couple of hours or work huh and a concept pulled right out of my ass. xoxox

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Picking Up

Someone chatted me up by the magazine rack yesterday. I'd been flipping through FHM, and he looked over my shoulder and said something like, 'that's a lovely bikini, don't you agree.' I looked at him, raised an eyebrow and shook my head. 'It's too tame.'Among other things, i just realized that someone has a subscription to Esquire in my family. That someone is apparently my mom.And Martine is

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Manolo Blah-whatever

Rainy afternoon, date with Martine that got fucked up because too-many-people-look. Young girl, older white guy kinda problem, what a pain in the ass. He’s so gorgeous I cannot possibly see why it should be a problem in the least. So what if he’s old-er, if you really want to be shallow, at least he falls into the category of the tres chic and very desirable.I hate being in public with him, or

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Desire Junkie

Boy would I love to snort him till I'm dead. <>But I cannot promise all of it exclusively,Unless you can gurantee that,All I give,You will take.If he'd just...*sigh*Not meeting me tonight because he needs to sort out his brains with Liz. That evil, insecure, childish woman.Oh my, my, my.I'm jealous.Maybe I should thank her for making him desirable.Get it?Fuck me. I have paternal

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The Sweetest Thing

So the plane landed about an hour ago and I remember thinking to myself, man I'm very pleased with my life. I had a great easter weekend with Chris, and aside from the ocassional moments where I felt a little too much like Doleres for my own comfort (look, he's just about several decades older then I am, and we were in the U.S... especially so when he suggested a road trip in the Summer after the

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Dropping In

I definitely have no inspiration to write about much today, although (as usual) in the course of the last few hours, many nice things have happened. I really do think there are two kinds of people in this world, the people that live activity filled lives, and the people that don’t. I mean, how is it possible that without trying, 6 hours out of any day of my existence can be more exciting then an

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Absorbed, Single-Minded... Bleh.

Being in love is the biggest joke. Sometimes I wish he would just tell me to sod off already, so I don’t have to go through all the insecurity. It’s completely unbelievable. So what if he doesn’t send me a text? I don’t send a billion other guys texts, even though they’d want it, and I don’t care for texts from them either. They’re good looking, rich, intelligent; what is it with this one bastard

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Rush Rush Rush

I cannot think. Most of my thoughts are all inwards on Martine, and those feelings I cannot describe. There’s too much. What an incredible, amazing lover he is, he’s not sent me a single message all day. I know he’s obsessed with Jeffery Sachs and Bono, so it’s excusable, but how marvelous. He’ll kill me.I went out to meet a photographer this afternoon, he likes calling himself Video, so let’s

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I Should be Exploding

See that thing over there? It’s an emotion coordinator. It comes with a little transistor thingy you can stick up your boyfriend’s ass that you can use to coordinate his feelings with yours. That way you can make him feel like you’re feeling. It’s rather simple to use. You stick in songs and poems that bring out a certain emotional sensation, a certain way that is just Martine (or whatever your

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Damn it.

So a guy I fucked exactly 2 years ago emailed me though this blog without knowing he fucked me, and I met him at a club 10 minutes ago, without arranging anything. Is this a fucking small world or what.I love Martine. I'm sorry to everyone else that wants to fuck me, but I love him. I can't, oh I just can't. It's insane, no one has gripped me in such a long time. Gripped me so hard even my

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Situational People

Most people really are very nice. I think only insecure people are horrid. And as I meet more and more people, I realize that people these days are mostly pleasant and rather decent. Maybe it’s because I grew up on the good old ‘wait till you grow up, then you’ll appreciate the life you have as a kid. Because the world is cruel, and the only people that’ll ever show you love is your family.’ Well

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The headmistress looked at me with pity.‘You’re so cynical you know. So… jaded. For a girl your age, you behave like your 30, like you’ve been through it all.’ She said to me, as if telling me would change anything. After all, if I’ve grown up, I can hardly recede back into the juvenile mindset she expected all girls my age to have.‘Then how should I be behaving?’ I asked.‘Like the rest of the

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Who Says I'm Jaded

The headmistress looked at me with pity.‘You’re so cynical you know. So… jaded. For a girl your age, you behave like your 30, like you’ve been through it all.’ She said to me, as if telling me would change anything. After all, if I’ve grown up, I can hardly recede back into the juvenile mindset she expected all girls my age to have.‘Then how should I be behaving?’ I asked.‘Like the rest of the

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Self-Loving Darling

‘Did you miss me?’ Asked the doctor.‘I did actually.’‘I thought you were in deeply love with your boyfriend, whatever his name is.’ He accused.‘ I thought I was. And I think I am, but you know what? I think when I’m allowed to love a person completely, which means to say I have that love returned in some way, eventually, I just stop loving in that obsessive manner. Nah, I think I can only ever

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Godly Speculations...

I thank God that my life is so pleasant to live.I thank the fact that there is no God, therefore my life is so pleasant to live.I thank Destiny for alloting me a pleasant life to live.I thank Myself for giving myself such a pleasant life.Who ever says anything but the first statement?Everything the brain of a normal person can do has a purpose that enables her to live conveniently. Certainly the

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Crossword Coincedence

Sometime ago there were a bunch of rather bored metaphysical scientist who got a rather sizable sample size of human beings and made them do crossword puzzles. They made them do the puzzle in the daily paper regularly for half a year, then they made them do the puzzle in the daily paper that belonged to yesterday (yesterday’s paper as opposed to today’s paper) for the next half a year. The

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People are Selfish

Whether they greatly desire you, they love you or they just plain like to shag you, they are all selfish. They’d like to do nice things for you, certainly, but they’d just rather not do it if they could, for whatever reason. Like say, they feel lazy.I was SMS-ing Dr. Seuss today; rather, he texted me first and asked me if I was game for some bondage on Monday. I didn’t have a reason to refuse,

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Right Wrong Who Cares

It’s only been one day, and everything seems to have fallen into place already. I’m rather strapped on cash, which doesn’t make me very happy, but that aside. Chris has replied my email, and is rather happy that I can make it to San Fran for the weekend after next (I think) and I have a painting to complete, and being occupied always pleases me because it reaffirms my self-importance as a

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Mode of Living

Ethan left, and I don’t feel very much to be honest. May be because this time I know I’ll be seeing him in a matter of months, so there’s not much for my imagination to speculate upon. It’s difficult to feel sad or lonely because I was traveling with him, and now I’m grounded, without it. The situations are too vastly different for me to feel like I’ve lost someone that was an essential part of a

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It's A Small World

Guess what? Ethan and I came back to Singapore for a couple of days so I could collect my A Level certificate (in case you’re wondering, I did manage to get a decent enough score to enter the Fine Art and Design course I wanted) and he decided to meet a few of his friends he’d gotten to know back, oh, a year or so ago. He probably went on a rather lengthy exposition of the more decent aspects of

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The Pill

The damn thing can really fuck off. After managing to aqquire twoc ondom accidents in about a fortnight (Durex too!) I decided to play it sfae since I was fucking so often and take the pill. The downside for me is that I get pretty shitty cramp. And I'd like to blame the 1-ish kilo I gained on that damned thing too, but I know that'll be nothing more then a lousy excuse for eating too much. But

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Onion Rings

At breakfast yesterday, I got quite pissed off at the fact that another girl in the guest house we were staying at was paying $8 a day for the same room, while we paid $15 (there were other people paying $20). I suppose first wolders are not too familiar with bargaining for accomodation, but suprisingly, if you do, you can shave off about 30% of the first quoted price.We got about 20% off

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Not Being Alone on V-Day

My first valentine's day not being alone was kinda cool. We watched the sunset in what seemed to be an ancient sacrificial pit (I made that story up about one of the ruins at Ankor) and had dinner at a fine dining restuarant in the small town -it's so small you can walk around it in an hour- of Siem Reap. As much as 'fine dining' can possibly get here. As with Ko Chang (on Thailand), I'm amazed

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I Should Be So Happy

My parents have taken to Ethan quite well. Actually, infinitely much better then they took to the Ex. They didn’t ask him anything much at all, my dad had a conversation with him about anti-Semitism, finance ministers and other boring things like that. For some reason or other, my parents didn’t seem particularly interested in the least where our traveling was concerned.

We landed sometime in

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Too Many Stories...

I finally managed to write a little today, but it isn't much, and I don't feel like posting it at the moment. When I finally get some time to myself, maybe I'll do it. For the moment, Ethan stays by my side nearly always, and he peeks at my screen at times, which I do not have a problem with, if he does not have a problem with it either. I think he may have glanced upon an email Martine sent me

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Sesame, Vanilla and Mint oil

They were offering massages by the beach under coconut tress for a couple fo bucks, it was lovely. I smell like Sesame oil (the cooking sort, honestly, and vanilla ice-cream. Basically, I feel eatable) and my skin tingles with mint.

Ethan and I woke up early, challeneged each other to swim to the opposite island, even though it was clear that I was going to lose anyway, I gave up half way,

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Getting Out :D

Bangkok was a great deal of fun. We're both equally tragic with maps (actually,I'm marginally better. My sense of direction and intuition with where to go is also better. I'm still working on the getting ripped off bit. But there's not much you can do about that I suppose, when you don't speak the language).

I cannot be bothered to get through how I feel, honestly. It's just been alot of fun,

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Kinda Stressed, but...

It's been absolutely great so far. We're both quite cool with each other, I don't suppose I feel much different with him now then I did two years ago actually, which, how shall I put it, comfortable. Our finances are a mess of course, but we'll work things out subsequently. My mother think's he's a 'nice boy', but insists that we MUST come back for Chinese New Year, which is a terrible headache.

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Not Too Bad

Thing always turn out better then how you expect them to be. I cancelled on Dr. Seuss today, because I woke up with my lungs aching like crazy. For a fraction of a second, my mind went, ‘shit, tuberculosis!’, but of course it wasn’t. They were fine after a good long nap, from which Chris woke me up with when he called.

I met him late in the afternoon, and I felt like cocktail hour by the pool. I

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Update

The past few days have been unforgivably hectic. Martine is very upset at me, for some stupid reasons. And he thinks I get jealous over Liz sometimes. I asked him if he was really sad for her that her grandmother has died only because I was wondering if he actually could care for her, or was he simply just doing things because he had to do them. Of course he probably felt a little sad, but to

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A Little Theory

After Martine had convinced me that nearly all of his books by Milan Kundera he had read in French, I decided to buy my own. Besides, I liked owning all my reading material. But of course I like it even more when I allow myself the liberty of owning the possessions of someone I adore. So I bought Laughable Loves today. In the process of this particular quest bumping into two girlfriends, one of

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JFK

'Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country' -JFK

Fair enough. But does this country appreciate what I'm already doing for it? Does it listen? Does it want me to take an active stand, or does it wish for me to do what it wants me to do, in which case, patriotism would not be a requirement, (what is required instead) is simply an inability to leave.

Don't you

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And She Is.

The city stands, charmingly bona fide in it’s consistency. Despite it’s people, with their capricious moods and inherent desires that shift and change by the moment, she stands. There is nothing for her to anticipate, nothing for her to fear. The people simmer inside her, going on about their lives, falling into place as gears well oiled for the continuity of the city. Fed upon the fear of

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Moral Quacks

I don’t really write much about the whole racial thing any more because I generally don’t like to think of people in terms of the colour of their skin. I think it quite unfair actually, how so many local people can find it logical to slander someone based on their choice of lifestyle and partner, and accuse me of being racist against my own. If I am racist against my own race, then so are they,

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If Only I Could Die for a Little While

Sometimes I think about heaven and wonder at how absurd it is that all that stands in our way is death. I mean, the difference in the quality of life (as believed by some) between heaven and earth is completely vast. Heaven’s supposed to be this… complete utopia… and all that’s required to attain it is to... die. And it’s really not such a big deal. Technically if you shot yourself, it’ll be

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i Mac Angel

Too many weird things have happened in the last couple of days. Actually, it's just been one day. When I've managed to cosolidate myself I'll blog about it. In the meanwhile, I'd really rather be reading.



xo

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Tropical Silence

The day passed by in a delirium of sultry stillness, giving me hours with which I could find time for detachment from the necessity to be with people. The afternoon was self-affirming. I made myself worthy to be worshipped and worshipped myself. Surely there is something admirable in the nature that, at times, desires remoteness from everything that does not matter. Which is just about everything

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Girl.

Cool. I just realized the site I did for my Brother's school band is up. It's nothing spetecular, but... just to prove that my computer capabilities aren't all that tragic.

School Band

xo

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Tropical Stillness

I woke up this morning and felt so lonely. No one had called me out for brunch, my painting’s been done so there’s nothing pressing for me to complete, the book I’m reading is so difficult to get through; so beautifully written but so impossible to read. I felt, I feel, lonely.

I don’t particularly wish to be with anyone. Martine perhaps, but he’s beset with his own set of problems. He was in a

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Remixed the Birth of Venus

No dates today, so I stayed home to finish her.



Rushing off for a photo-shoot now, need to buy new lingerie. Screw Martine. I still miss the G-Spot a little. He told me I make him think of the Midsummer's night dream. *sigh*

xoxox

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Melancholy

The G-Spot asked if I’d like to drop by his place late last night, and I did. I wasn’t going to have the time otherwise, and he would be leaving this weekend, so I thought I’d just better. He was lovely company as usual, and we cuddled up in bed watching Stealing Beauty, a pretty bizarre movie with Liv Tyler and Jeremy Irons in it.

It was great spending the night cuddling with him. I don’t

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Lust

I had dinner with Mr. Big sometime back. We still hang out sometimes, although not much these days. He has his life and I have mine, and it was good to have spent all that time with him, but things have faded out pretty much these days. I won’t use fade away though, because I don’t believe in that. In my life, people I really get to know somehow just don’t do that, and I quite like it this way.

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Several Notes

Allright, for some reason, a lot of people have been emailing me with regards to the post on religion a few days ago. A lot of them have mentioned free choice. There is unhappiness on Earth because God has given us free choice.

I used to do a lot of pre-ordained evangelism (it was part of the regiment of being a Christian in the institution I used to attend) and I’ve used it many times

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Wake Up Girl

I actually think I’m getting better at this. At slowly weaning myself off my parents, systematically loosing dependence. If I were any older, I’d be a fraud to be writing everything I did, and to still be living with them. It’s too Singaporean, not that being Singaporean is bad, but rather the fact that we just seem to live with our parents… forever.

Living is quite incomprehensible, don’t you

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Food for Thought

If God was all powerful, then could he not have made the world a completely perfect place? And if there was a law he had to follow, and therefore as such, he could not have made the world a completely perfect place (and since the world was made for man, and all of creation to be enjoyed by man, the perfection he should have percieved should be what would be perfect when man looked upon it) then

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Avarice Does Not Come A-Knocking

If there is one thing I am addicted to, it’s experience. It’s not sex, it’s not money, it could be people, but that’s inevitably a very necessary ingredient in order for experiences to formulate themselves. I think I am quite bored of the whole sex for money thing and have decided it's certainly not something I would like to do often. I've no problems with getting money for favours, but I will

09.01 | 0 komentar | Read More

Officially Sugared

I met Chris for drinks in the middle of the afternoon today, after leaving Dr. Seuss. He had wanted to book my entire afternoon for an illicit sojourn, but Chris had come down specially to see me and I couldn’t disappoint him, regardless of whether he really wanted to do the whole paying for company thing. I had gotten my test results from the Gyne earlier on in the day, and they were all

11.07 | 0 komentar | Read More

Sugar Daddies

They are very much fun to have. All the better if they are single, fit, easy-going, with modesty that is of inverse proportion to the money they make, and funny. Screw youth and beauty, I appreciate kindness, intellect and the capability for vast generosity more then anything in the world.

Had lunch with Dr. Seuss today, and was finishing up with coffee when Martine called. I felt terribly

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There is One Intensity...

So much for me being independent from the drug that Martine provides me. That completely whacked out, insane, completely disarming, utterly unbalancing drug. I wouldn’t even call it love or passion, or anything for that matter. Not even desire. Certainly it’s a little of all of those, but I do not love him because love to me is when two people need each other. Passionate, up to a certain measure,

09.18 | 0 komentar | Read More

French Bordello

I’ve been completely busy the last couple of days, trying to figure out what to do for the next year (go back to school, which school, where, studying what… or finding a job I’ll learn something from) And spending time with Dr. Seuss.

Martine called me the moment he got free from Liz, whom he’d just gotten back from Bangkok from. Either he’s really into me –to have called me at once the moment

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Fallen Angel

So Happy New Year's allright! 5 bangs in my first 24 hours into the year, not too bad really. And a little gift from one of my very talented photographers. I wish for him to have all the time in the world as he would like to work on his art. He is very good.

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Happy New Years

So I’m a day late, no apologies. I was out having fun, partying like crazy, hitting on cute white guys and getting pissed so you can have interesting blog material. Although in retrospect, what I did on NYE is no more interesting that what most people did anyway, which is to say get wasted and herald in the New Year with a bang and a hang-over. And for some of the unfortunate, a scream at the

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